Lost within spirals, gashes of turbulence,
Doubt careens into my skull spilling cream…
Sweet pleasure of surety.
Devoured by greater understanding.
Nothing learned about everything,
Three days forgotten, I am reborn.
Stronger longing but no longer waiting.
Aching for sublime happy endings.
Withered death dreams.
Fractured pieces of sanity back to the valley.
Rising to Ashes from which I came.
Happiness only when I’m slumber’s slut.
Swimming in wind spit.
Wash away life’s brutal thrust.
Reverse angle, all the way hilt…
Deep Bowel Caresses.
Mind’s alarm again.
Tired fire eyes fall to ashes.
Enjoyment: breath’s final release.
Punishing me for my sloth.
Drive me to journey.
Valleys appear in this wasted land.
In the Garden of Tomorrow,
At the City on the Edge of Forever,
Listening to the howl. Seeing further adventures.
More bulging, spaces filled.
Definitive choice, culminated, made.
Smelling scent of blooming petals,
Rhythm and Sensation are the of scent…
Truth crushing vanity impeding destiny.
Working with oblivious hands.
Simply accepting to regrade this degraded corpse.
That was my life.
Now smudged; decayed.
By golden tongued dilettantes.
Stole my insanity away.
So, here on ward 67 I go sane…
This day, the beast will shine again,
Its bitterness devours…
The brilliance & The love.
Gasping within you
Absent will be…
Adoration and joy gazing.
Special words lost, only memories of human being.
This soul, forever in secured: ALONE.
A demon’s indulge with dreams; could have been.
Cascading puzzle pieces… always out of order.
Never vending the right picture, no matter price paid.
Rusted and bitter from too many tears
Hidden behind facsimile smiles.
Left in moments of eternity present.
Gone long, are sweet eternities only lasting seconds.
Soul’s energy, visions reminder.
A breathing corpse is the remainder.
Aching, wanting to be wrong.
Searching for a throne,
Only to be silenced by despair.
Broken from too many truths…
Inflicted upon myself.
Walking the valley of silence…
I, feel, the weight of soliloquy.
Eyes beg for shards of this tattered soul.
I, the beggar: beaten, broken, and blistered.
Eyes longing for abusement…
Laughing at my trust…
Nothing is real.
Walking down the mountain.
Wind whistle remedy for pain.
Never mind. Never mine…
Sadness falls, walking from the valley…
I lied too myself again.
Believing there would be…
Hope and understanding.
Still, I push on…
Veracity and Verity
Lies that bind.
Unravels the fabric.
The faithful fearful.
Lies of Truth
Another day, praying around.
Truth’s bitter taste.
Has no droughts.
Be the destroyed destroyer.
All these hate crimes.
Lie of truth is employed.
So much can no longer avoid.
Vomit spewed forth on my life.
Honesty, truths so foul,
Marks on this beast,
Daggers of honesty,
Love diseased, deceased.
From beginning a leper’s sexual giving.
Misery and desire, beheaded.
Only a liars desire.
Pain subsides as you perspire.
Life’s rebuttal reboots.
Beginning again on monthly cycles
Torture, rebirth, Torment.
Never getting away.
When even death numbs nothing.
Gaping spectators eye rape,
While domineering whispers,
Come from the smirk of Mr. Condescension.
Invigoration, Miss Waterfall,
Overwhelmed by brutal tactile sensation.
Barroom, bathroom, bedroom: Courtroom.
Never walk away…
In the midst of saloon drenched mating dance.
Yearning, spilled planed gush.
Disposable emotions decayed.
Splayed open; lifetime for servitude.
All for one blight of pleasure.
High the price for a moment of youth…
Just spirited away.
Vital farce, casting couch shadows…
Quaking with courage.
Rising froth of mirror ball desires.
Inner demons delight.
Emotional shh… hell.
Solidify with warming.
Thrusting and Trolling.
A new sermon of change and hope.
The Beauties in Blasphemies
Overtaking life nonchalantly.
A joke more brightly lit…
Moments now and the times ahead.
Please, let these chemicals sink in…
Before relieving your dread inside me.
Fill with fright if you show like.
Pull away… everyday, everyone, everything.
After, so many perforations.
A no fault insurance policy: My lack of faith.
True you, intertwined with humanity.
I see: soul better.
Trust inconsequential; past transgression.
God of empty souls.
I, refuse to fight the universe.
Continue to move.
Continue to love.
Be the best.
Give finger to fear to spite fear.
Syllables imprisoned by mortality morality.
A warm grasp on now cold throat.
Crushing fears with sweet tonal caress.
Silenced, guttural, sweeping out…
Sinjury in the soul.
Brooding drift in mediocrity serenade.
Breeze haunts grind against the window of pane.
Liquid sand, grains of terror of watery deep.
Hearing the glorious gasp!
Striving, longing, aching…
Clinging to keep soul to flesh.
Silently scream all you desire.
Oh… too late: you just expired…
Succulent oozing of pornographic dreams.
Masturbation vision ripening screams.
Without care violating fantasy of violation.
A hero delights as princesses screams.
Story of the bold; sweating with the dead.
The Queen of hurts drowned by the crushing of seams.
Magic hands… destroyer of light.
Finger on the bullet. Fingering death’s temptation.
Mourning the Morning. Mind’s cry warning.
Arrogant allusions of the illusion of inclusion.
Spitting on the grave of youthful sinnocence.
Too long dead…
Empty center trying to be filled.
Stretching the truth just to feel.
Till all that resides: tender saline drip…